New Beginnings
I would like to take a moment to reflect on the past weeks that led to me publishing my artist’s website.
It was a time of constant change and preparation with God’s Handwriting all over it.
Even though I have been symbolically speaking in the wilderness, I trusted God enough to lead me through it. (He still does.)
It hasn’t been easy since I’ve experienced an unbearable amount of loss and heartbreak. It left me drained and weary, with some days being unwillingly worse than others. These are the moments I get to live out my faith in God in spite of what I feel or see.
It is as if I knew I will eventually get the shoes that I ordered, but haven’t received them yet (tried to think of a better example, but this was the only one that came to my mind, maybe you have a better one) .
It is especially tuff when hope is the only thing left to hold on to. Feels like dangling in the wind, hanging on a single thread. I believe we’ve all experienced something similar before in our lives. As for my experience so far, God has always made a way through it — coming out stronger than I was before. “What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger” has in fact proven itself to be true.
Was I scared to let go? Most definitely!
I wasn’t prepared to, but I took the leap nonetheless. In the end it was a heart decision, everything else followed on its own. I lost my comfort, future fantasies and expectations, and close people. Everything that wasn’t stable and secure was removed from my life in an instant. And that came with a lot of grief. Nobody told me about that part.
Sometimes people are only meant to stay in your life for a certain amount of time — to teach you something, to help you grow or for you to help them. But sooner or later comes a point were each one has to continue on their own path. That is not always pleasant but sometimes necessary to walk into what God has prepared for you.
I have absolutely no idea where this path is leading me. But I trust that it is better than I expect.
Sometimes it seems as if God changes the shape of earth only to make us realize something that we have been blind to notice all that time. That is how important we are to Him. (Isaiah 45:2)
Here is a Vers I’d like to reflect on about new beginnings. I hope this helps, in case you find yourself in a similar situation.
“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”
This is what God promises his chosen people of Israel while they’re still in exile in Babylon. They have been displaced from their land, discouraged and weary. In spite of their blindness and deafness towards Him, mentioned in the previous chapter, He still promises to restore and renew.
“See, I am doing a new thing!”
God does not deny the wilderness. He enters it. He does not wait until the land is fertile again; He creates life in the desert itself. What feels like an ending to us may be the very soil where God begins something new.
“Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?”
God’s new work often starts quietly. It doesn’t always come with certainty, but with an invitation to trust. The question is not whether God is working, but whether we are willing to notice. Fear, disappointment, and nostalgia can blind us to what God is growing right in front of us.
“I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”
A way means direction when you feel lost. Streams mean sustenance when you feel empty. God does not simply lead us out of the wilderness, sometimes He sustains us within it, teaching us to trust Him step by step.
So far I couldn’t be happier with what I’m doing. I always dreamt of becoming an artist, but never brave enough to fully pursue it. For a few months now I have been focusing on what I’m best at and now it’s slowly starting to bear fruit.
I am officially at the beginning of a great adventure and very excited to have you join me on this journey!
